Evolution/Pollution

The world goes round and round
While I stand still
Nothing seems to change
Even if there is the will.

The will to move forward
The will to evolve
But that leaves me the question;
How can this be solved?

There are no answers,
There is no solution.
I'll always be stuck
In this mind full of pollution.

Peace Of Mind

The world keeps changing
as days go by
things keep re-arranging
when all I want is to fly.

Fly away from here
to a place where everyone's kind
or better: where no-one's there
so I can finally have some peace of mind.

Coat Of Happiness

The trees
alongside the road
dancing with the wind
but the wind won't blow off my coat.

A coat
shiny and new
no stains or holes
it never was where its owner flew.

I can't lose it
have to keep it on
'cause if I take it off
they'll have won.

Forgiveness

Look at that girl,
falling on her knees,
asking for forgiveness.
She doesn't need
a slap in her face,
she's already down low.

Look at that girl
fallen on her face,
as she asked for forgiveness.
She had it coming
a smack in her face
balancing on the edge.

She looks up
with her broken heart
asking once more.
She knows it,
she doesn't deserve it,
But it's the only hope she's got left.

Thank You

Ripped
into pieces.
Torn
apart.

Abandoned
to fade.
Left
behind.

Angry
is what I am.
Rage
is what I feel.

I'm sorry,
you sealed my deal.

Curtain Falls

the curtain will fall
soon
the darkness
will surround me

taking me along
away from here
I'm bleeding
I don't care



[Inspired by the band 'Riverside' from Poland]

You Win

Everyday I've been fighting
for your attention
Never got it
no matter what I mentioned

Whatever I did
was never good enough
Whatever I said
there was no love

All this time
I've been trying so hard
But you didn't respond
not even a card

Now I've reached the point
I'm through my skin
Daddy,
You win.

cruelty

pain
brutal pain
without meaning to

hurt
immense hurt
without wanting to

why
is humanity
so ******* cruel?

Conquerer

There you go
drifting away
again.

Not giving me
the chance
to make it up to you.

I know you don't want this
you just want to be loved
instead of hurt.

Why don't you trust me then
why don't you give me a chance
I'll prove it to you;

I'll prove you wrong
I'll prove you that
love can conquer everything.

Can't Tell

I can't tell
how I feel
I can't tell
what I see

I can't say
what I want
I can't say
what'll happen

I can't speak
about her
I can't speak
about anything

I can't think of anything
other than the words
I've already used too often;
I'm sorry

Changes

I'm not the perfect daughter
Far from it
And I don't always make it easy
For you to settle in

But don't you go around
blaming me for all that's wrong
'Cause I'm not the only one
who doesn't try hard enough

No, you're not perfect either
And I know you never wanted this
And you didn't expect it either
But now we're here

So, for god's sake, just try
Try being a mother
Try accepting me the way I am
Please show me more affection

'Cause I wanna love you
I really do
But if we both don't change
I'll never be that loving girl
That you want me to be
Instead of this resentful, aggressive girl
That I am

Nobody

Nobody
Seems to really care
How much longer
She can bare.

Nobody knows
How she's lost hope
And how she's
Struggling to cope.

Nobody sees
The damage she's done
To herself
Waiting to be gone.

Nobody hears
Her crying at night
Praying
To finally reach the Light.

The Island

all quiet and peacefull
reunited
all loved and cared for
reaching out

the Island
where she can be
whomever she wants to be
the Island

all ready to go
done
all things settled
time has come...

Dungeon Funeral

a dungeon dark and still
there she is, feeling ill
wanting to scream and cry
yet everyone passes by

going away
leaving her without any hope
why cant they stay
she cannot cope...

I'm not over you

Time goes by
and I try
to move on
but I can't.

It hurts so bad
and I'm so fuckin' sad
and angry
all at once.

I can't do this anymore
wanna walk out the door
make it stop
it hurts, I'm out...

Together

Together we could've
made it through
Together we could've
still have her

Why didn't you involve me?
Let me into your life.
I can't imagine how hard it must be
to lose your wife.

Wish I would've been older
and could've remembered it.
Wish I was stronger
so I could take your pain.

Together we can make it
Together we are a team
Together we're invincible
Together we can dream.

Finished

The curly hair
I can feel it
But yet I don't

Wishing it wouldn't
Be this hard
But it won't help

No matter what
I say
No matter how hard
I pray

She's gone
Won't come back

Don't bother

Let me go
Dont bother
I dont wanna know.
Dont tell me you love me
It makes this even more painful
Stop it
please
Dont care
Let me be
I'm outa here

Train

You are gone,
will never come back.
No matter how ard
I wish or pray.
It's over.

I am here,
at this trainstation.
Have to choose
what train I'll enter.
Where should I go?

Both trains
got pro's and cons.
Still can't pick.
Too late, they're leaving.
And I'm stuck here.

Stuck between life and death,
Them and you.
Guess I'm bound
to stay forever.
No more of them, nor you.
Just me,
alone forever.

Like a clock

The clock
is ticking
tick, tack, tick, tack...
I'm looking at it
how the hands slide
towards the next hour.
Still no change.

The door underneath opens
my eyes stare at it
hoping it's him.
But it's just her.

My eyes slide back to the clock
The hourhand is still moving.
And it won't stop
untill the battery goes dead.
Just like my heart
stops beating
untill he will come
to change the batteries.

Distant love

Time goes by
so quickly
and there's nothing
I can do

Time goes by
so quickly
when all I want
is to be with you

The distance
is so big
it's tearing
me apart

The distance
is so big
I'll keep you forever
in my heart

Some friend

energy
money
passion
love
I gave
everything
but you just took it
leaving me
shattered
drained
empty
and alone

Wrong impression

Always thought
you were the one
who cared

Always thought
you were the one
who loved me most

Always felt
he was the one
who wasn't interested

Always felt
he was the one
who didn't listen

But today I found
it's the other way around
Why didn't I see this coming?
I'm not your daughter
so why would you want me here?
After all, it's not as if you care...

Mirror

Unpredictable,
the things you say
but yet, I hear.

Secrets,
in your head
but yet, I sense.

Hiding,
your feelings inside
but yet, I know.

Pain,
under your sleeves
but yet, I see.

But when I look into the mirror
I dont hear or sense,
nor do I know or see.
It's empty.
And you're the only one
who can show me
who I really am.

Your fault

You never knew
what was going on
inside my head

You never knew
what I thought
when laying in bed

I tried to tell you
what was going on
what my life was about

I tried to tell you
but you didn't care
you just walked out

Now you're blaming me
for the things you did
and for feeling hate

Now you're blaming me
for being a stranger
and for the mistakes you made!