Rolemodel

Worthless,
reckless,
irresponsible.
All put in words
very well.
Thank you for telling me
what a failure I am.
But please don't forget,
I learned it all
from YOU!

Sharif

You said it was cause you had to go
that it was what you had to do
You said it was best for both
I don't believe you

Though you always were careful
and stopped when I told you to
I felt you wanted more
Sorry I couldn't give it to you

Now you left me wondering
why did we end?
I know it's not the reason you said
but why then??

Passing

tears
streaming
down her face
arms
embracing
saying she's ace

drops
dripping
on the floor
hands
guide
her to the door

fingers
stroking
through her hair
but yet
life
passes

it's unfair

Gone

There she is
She's put on her smile
Has to keep it there
For quite a while

Afraid of what
Others might see
When she lets it down
Will they flee?

Well even if they stay
She wont know
'Cause she made her plans
She will go

Silently

silently whispering
hoping they won't hear
but yet she wants them to
she wants them to care

silently hiding
hoping they won't see
but yet she misses them
wants them to see

silently hoping
for them to be nice
when they get back
instead of cold as ice

silently wishing
they wouldn't exist
but yet, without them
she couldn't live

Flee

There she goes
running along the river
moving away
from me.

There she went
to flee from this
into something else
with prospect.

Was there anything
I could've done
to make her stay
rather than go away?

No, this was meant to be
She had to run from me
Cos she has to follow her own path
towards happiness

To be happy
she had to flee
away
from me.

Too much to ask

Am I asking too much of you?
Am I really too hard on you?
Or is it you?
Are you giving too little?

Why do you always make me wonder
If it's my own fault?
Is life supposed to be this hard?

Can't you see I wouldn't be like this
If you'd give me what I need?
Is it really too much to ask,
to get some affection?

See yourself

If you could only see
your beauty
the way I see it

If you could only hear
your voice
the way I hear it

If you could only feel
your love
the way I feel it

If you could only care
about yourself
the way i care about you

If you could only love
yourself
the way I love you

You'd be
the most loved
and happy person
on earth

Alive

Your eyes
they make me see
a world of love

Your lips
they make me float
to the clouds above

Your lovely words
they make me feel
worthwhile

You're the one
who keeps me
alive!

Me

Why
Do you know me
Better
Than I know myself?

How
Can you love me
More
Than I love myself?

When
Will you stop making me feel
As if
You've got a wrong image of me?

Why
Do you care for me
When all I deserve
Is to be hated?!

Over

Torn
Into pieces
Ripped apart
Nowhere to find.
Lost
In space
Forgotten
Left to fade away.
Alone
In my mind
Drowning
In my thoughts.
Forever
There will be
No more
Left
Of me

Fade

Tears
they trickle
down my cheeks.
Drops
falling down
off my chin.
Dripping on the floor
squashed
into pieces.
Broken as
my shattered soul;
Left alone
to fade
into dust...

Reason

There she is
floating between us.
Hoping we'll see
What love is.

She left you
as well as me
Maybe we can try to think
This was meant to be.

Sometimes
I think you blame me
And sometimes
I blame you.

But fact is
it's no-ones fault
And we should go on
Instead of thinking back

We should start to do
what she'd want us to do:
show eachother
How much we care
About one another

Daddy, I love you

Hate me

get the f*ck out
out of my heart
out of my life
out of my mind

please just start feeling
feeling love for yourself
feeling regrets for knowing me
feeling hate for me

leave
walk out on me
and hate me
for the rest of your life
I promise you
that's the best for all...

Ghost

it's time
to leave
cos there's nothing
left no more
to be happy for
nothing
left
to stay for
please don't
love me no more
I'm not worth it
just walk
out that door
and never
ever
look back
cos I won't
be there no more
at the doorstep
there'll be
nothing but a shadow
waving goodbye
to you all

Why can't you see?

You have absolutely no clue
of what I'm going through
Every day is hell for me
And you just can't see

You don't see how much I need you
You don't see what I need you to do
I just need you to be here
I want you to be near

Why are you always away
This has to stop today
I need more than your body near
I need your soul to be here!!!

I love you,
why can't you just love me too?

Wonders

The wonders haven't left yet
They are still here
Within the people you've met
And the stories you share

And even if they're far away
Never give up the hope
Cos in your heart they'll stay
And they'll help you cope

With your biggest loss
And your greatest fear
Through the deepest valleys
And the highest tops
They will always be near!

Sorry

For as long as I remember
I thought I hated you
But I was wrong
I realise now
I just feel sorry for you

Sorry for the loss of your beloved
Sorry for your unability to show your love
Sorry for having to deal with disappointment
But most of all I'm sorry for you
that you are YOU...

Paternal love

Why are you here
If you don't love me anyway
Why do you do this
If you can't ever be proud at me

Why do you say those things
That make me feel worthless
Why do you do those things
That make me feel wrong

Why do you keep on rubbing in
That she's better than me
Why do you show so obvious
That you love her more than me

Why can't you just be
Proud of me
For who I am and what I do
Why can't you just love me
The way it should be
As fathers are supposed to

Regrets

My body may be gone,
But I'm still here;
My spirit lives on.

And you'll feel in your soul
That I am here,
To fill up the hole.

But not entirely.
Therefore it's too much;
The pain you caused me.

And every night in bed,
You'll think of me
And wish you'd have said

That you DID believe.
But now it's too late;
And you'll have to live in grief...

Scars

Scars
On my body
But they will fade
Or even disappear

Scars
In my soul
Brought to by strangers
But also by friends

These scars
Will never fade
They will never stop hurting
They'll grow deeper
As time goes by...

Our world

I'm surrounded by love
All these people who care
But still sometimes
I don't wanna be here

I really wanna be with you
Not just read your letters.
I wanna be part of your life,
Where you and me is all that matters.

I wanna fly away
Towards your world
Then maybe
We can turn it into our world.

Our world
Where we can be
Our world
For eternity...

Time

Every day
I act happy as I should be
Every night
I'm crying over this fake me

Every morning
I wonder why I'm here
Ever evening
I wish I could be there

Every second
I think of you
Every moment
I wonder what I gotta do without you

Now I realise
It's nothing I have done
It's just that
Your time had come

untitled

Sometimes you want to forget the world,
Act as if you're alone.
You think you've created this world,
In which you are free.
And although earth keeps revolving,
While you don't want her to;
I am there for you,
Wherever you are or will be going to.

The end

The end is near.
I can feel it,
Salvation is almost there.
It's only a matter of days,
Before I'm released
In so many ways.
Open your heart,
And keep me there.
That way I'll always be here...